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Never thought in my mind that my US trip would be SF on the list…it just happened very sudden and spontant. It began from my email To Alvidas, a friend of mine in SF and I let him know that I am in LA since July 15th, and he reply that he is on the way to LA…Then I meet him on July 31st and he is on the way back to SF by the road….and there I am packing my stuff and next 30 minutes I am on the way to SF…after 8 hours driving ( what a beautiful view ) finally I am arrived and stay in grosvenor suites, located in pine and Masson, Thank to alvidas again, I just need to spend $ 69 per night which is the real price is $ 179, He works there. I am looking back on my last trip on 2004 with one of my good friend Andrew, it should be Singapore trip and on the way of moving to another hotel I just tell the taxi driver to go to the airport and there we are in Thailand…..QUICK AND SCRATCHI don’t know it is only me or it is happened to everyone…a sudden trip gives me an amazing feeling and when we are arrived it feels like unbelievable. we are keeping asking is it true that we just landed in new city….it just gives u adrenalin …. San Francisco…my second time here and I still heart this city…the architecture, landscaping, the cable car and the people…It just erase my 3 weeks in LA and Vegas….all the memories about US trip just focused on Sanfran…. Then I met new friends and old friends…nothing change about this city except getting more expensive…then the Quick and scratch romance begun… I never believe in love at the first sight and happily it’s not happened to me but I am the victim of someone’s sight…I could fall for this person, if we have more time together…it just the right love at the wrong time…we have completely different life and on this situation I have to use my logic then my heart, and it hurts…it sad…but that’s life… The question is…what is love then??? why it happened, it came but it is impossible, on that situation what would we have to choose….if we believe in soul mates then why love came not only for one person ? Then what is soul mate? Or it is better to write it soul mates…. On that point, I realized that soul mate just based on certain time and certain location and love could break the borders…but when u lucky Ur love will cross the borders and cupid to Ur soul mate… Now where is our position? A person who fought for love, a person who stays in their life, or a person who doesn’t care about all of those things and just accept what the destiny is… I should be a person who fought for love but my denial on love at the first sight made me a person who stays in their life…so what kind of us is depend on the time, place and situation… Nothing exact in human act, human act differently, and it just like the unscheduled trip…when u do something out of your habits it will gives an adrenalin to us, but it could cost u a lot, coz u r not always lucky having friends like alvidas who can gives me discount, and unscheduled trip mostly cost more than scheduled one but That’s life, cost for everything you did and what could buy the adrenalin and the happiness…..QUICK AND SCRATCH….

VIEW FROM MY ROOM

San Francisco International airport (August 5th, 2006, 12.45 am)

Auntie Linda come to visit us from holland after 16 yrs apart…That’s made me come to surabaya for seeing her and she came with her after divorced husband, gustav.

I remember what happenned in my big familly when auntie Linda tell us she is divorced and married to gustav, well my familly is raised in a very christian norm which they are against divorce or other things…that time my Oma against auntie linda’s decission and the others familly stand behind her…but for me myself, I do appreciate and respect her decission with her life, coz everything will be different when u see it as insider and the insider is ourself.Other people can give us their opinion but it’s not obligation at all for us to obey it….it’s our life and good and bad is not depend on norm or value or people’s opinion but good and bad is our decission…and afterall value of good and bad is only human preception….

When we have problems nobody can see our problem as good as ourself, coz we knew who we are and what is good for us, other people just look the problem and sollution based on their value or norm in the soociety, but they are not knowing what good for us. That’s what exactlly happenned to my familly at that time….

I can understand what in my oma’s mind at that time….my Opa is a priest and she is worry about other people’s opinion, but once again she is not seeing the problem with empathy, even herself influance and provocate with people’s thought and value and norm in the society…. the question is we are belong to societty or we have our life for ourself…why should we live for others requirement…why can’t we jut being ourself

Time pass, the silence between my auntie and my oma is colder but anyhow we are still familly. The rock will melt with the water, Hate and shame cover with love…and finally she came and we are welcome her and gustav with the love and spirit as Van de weg, Auntie linda’s decission for her life is her responsible and us as familly should respect it, and no matter what happenned she is stil familly and always be…..

differences will always exist but how we see the differences as a gift from creature will lead us to the improvement quality of our life…

After 16 yrs, and me myself away in manado for 6 yrs, my elder brother in ambon and marriend and got a daughter, my cousins are busy with their life and they are change…they achieve what their life lead them there…and it gives a different kind of person from my memory about them, and I am sure on the other hand…but what never change is we are familly…we are all still van de weg and the bound is tighter with the differences.

NB : We love Gustav, wellcome ….